Alan Walker - Faded | P3NROSE Remix

What is Poetry?

Poetry is different for everyone

Emotions should burst off the paper

Its pretty simple

Think about it all

But don’t over complicate it

Put words next to words

But make sure it makes sense

It doesn't have to be logical

Poetry can be simple

It's like cooking

It could have two or three ingredients

Or it could have ten

But not all cooking is for everyone

Your life story can be a poem

Or write one about your cat Fluffy

It can be short and sweet

Or long and a head ache

Thats whats great about poetry

It's yours and only yours

Destruction of Life

Our life begins and will end
It brings sadness and grief
Darkness instead of light
The world is bright
But then the next moment
The lights are turned off
No living human understands this
But we can come close
Trees losing their leaves
Becoming sickly looking
Your dog being hit by a car
Crushing an insect
Getting into a car crash
And killing the driver
We can cause it too
Gassing the Jews
Bombing Pearl Harbor
It's all around us
Darkness takes over light
And life cannot be brought back

Guilty As Charged

We all know that we are guilty of something, whether it be something small or large. I am here to confess that I am guilty of bullying people. But luckily it's not the people that have never hurt anyone or have bullied other people. The people I've been mean to deserve it. They may not realize it but they too are guilty of being mean. It just turns out that I'm the only one to have the balls to stand up to them. They say you shouldn't fight fire with fire, but I believe that's the only way to get people to realize was lying in front of them. I have gone through my life being bullied multiple times. And I mean a lot of times. More than I can count on my hands. And I gotta tell you, it's not fun. It doesn't feel great. It actually makes you feel like crap. It makes you go through life and question your existence. But it seems when I finally do stand up for myself I'm the one that's in trouble. It seems I'm the one to blame for everything. Growing up my dad always told me to stand up for myself and to never let anyone else fight my own battles. At school, I just don't understand. When people are mean to me or my friends, the adults look the other way. Or they act like its not important and they have other better things to do. And as soon as we finally stand up for ourselves and treat people how they treat us, we are the bad people. The adults finally pay attention. Doesn't make any sense at all. So now here I am, confession to the world that I am guilty of bullying. And I'm alright with that. I was always told to live by the Golden Rule. Treat others as you would want to be treated. They treat me like crap, therefore I'm going to treat them like crap. Enough said.

Just Tired.

I've been alive for almost 18 years now. And I have moments where I just want to give up. Hey who doesn't? And sometimes I know it's alright to have a mental breakdown. I have those often. Just 95% of the time I make sure no one sees these breakdowns. That way I will always be seen as strong. So with the past month I have had. Take that back. With the past year I have had, I am just tired. I'm tired of the stress. I'm tired of people. I'm tired of bad moments. I'm tired of not being loved. I'm tired of being sad and unhappy. I'm tired of people not understanding. I'm just tired. I need a break. And if me being silent and me acting like I don't give a shit helps with a break, then so be it. I just don't want to reach that point early in life where I just want to give up on everyone and everything.

Love and life.

There comes a point in our life where we have to pause and look at what all we have done. We have to stop and anaylyze what is all at hand. Sometimes doing that isn't the easiest in the world. We may come across obstacles and challenges. Some are hard and some are easy. But when do we decided that the time has come that we need to just pause and take a breather? Sometimes losing the one you love isn't easy. You wait for them for awhile. You see them with your best friend. Then it turns out your best friend is gay and then you think nows your chance. Well shoot, we got another thing coming. Instead of him falling for you, he goes and likes some internet girl. Some girl he will never see. Someone who will never get to feel his warm hugs. Someone who will never get to witness his terrible and good moments. Someone who just isn't there for him like I could be. But I guess that just doesn't matter. Because I will never be enough for anyone. I guess three strikes and I'm out.

Lil Beauties

There isn't anything too special about this post. Just wanted to share my beauties that are atop my bookshelves. 

Books, books and more books!

People tell me all the time I have enough books and I do not need to buy anymore. I say that is nonsense! They obviously do not have enough books in their life! The last time I had posted about books, was about October, I think? But, between then and now, I have gotten so many new books!!!!!! OMG! YESSS!!! I have bought books and books have been gifted to me! I have taken multiple pictures. And I will explain as to where I got all of my books as well!

These books (above) are from various places! I got them from Walmart, Target, Book Mammas, and Ollies Bargain Outlet. 

(Above) Target, Walmart, Ollies Bargain Outlet

(Above) I got these from Target! I have heard so many great things about this series and decided to give them a try! 

I actually got all of these books and the bookends for Christmas! 

I bought all of these books from a book sale. I went to an invite only book sale at a book publishing company. My best friend's mom works there and knew that I love books. And they were selling paperbacks for $0.50 and Hardbacks for $1

(Above) These came from the book sale mentioned above as well. Book sets were only $1. And they even had book sets that retail $80-$100, and they were selling them for only $1!!!!

(Above) Okay I got these books from that sale too. $1 each. 

Mary Poppins came from the same book sale. $1 for it. 

(Above) Half Price Books, Kroger, Dollar Tree, and Ollies Bargain Outlet

I ordered these from Amazon because I needed them for my Themes in Literature class. 

Bookshelf addition

I have recently added A LOT of books to my lil' library in my room. And I decided it was time for me to buy a new bookshelf. I only had $20 on me, and needed to get the best deal. And find the right size to fit into my room. So Walmart is the place to go. I found a 3-tier white shelf for $18. I actually turned it into a 4-tier because I used the top of it for books as well. I just used my fancy bookends to keep the books up on the top of the bookshelf. I rate this bookshelf a 4 out of 5. The only downfall is, it took me over an hour to assemble the shelf. The instructions were not the greatest and had some difficulties putting it together. And the back of the shelf is not that sturdy. The back is just a lil thicker than cardboard. Overall, I do like this shelf and will probably buy another in the future. I know my best friend, who is also a bookworm, is buying the taller version of mine from walmart. Its a 5-tier shelf for like $28.

 Also here is my little corner of heaven. There are four bookshelves. I have one more right across from them, but it currently doesn't house books because I don't have enough to fill all five! Ignore the stuff on the ground. There are like 3 stacks of books buried there. But they are books that were given to me and I just don't know how I feel about them. And I don't know what shelf I want to put them on. I also have some craft stuff on the floor because my 3 craft cabinets are full. YIKES!

New Record Player!!!

Hey everyone! Its been awhile since I have posted! And I figured I would just let everyone know that for Christmas, I got a record player!!! It is amazing! And since Christmas I have acquired new albums. My dad gave me all of my grandpa's albums. WHOOP! Found some Beatles and ACDC in there. I also bought a STYX album from a local record store. And for new music I have bought:

• Ed Sheeran
• Straight Outta Compton 
• Adele 25 
• Pitch Perfect 2 
• Green Day: American Idiot 
• Imagine Dragons 

I listen to my records at least every other night! If you do not own one, I highly recommend it!!!

 

6 Word Memoirs

I have come to share another assignment from my Creative Writing class!!!! Last week, we did a 6 word memoir assignment. Our teach wanted us to come up with a few of them. Here are mine! :

1. Discovering myself with success and failure.
2. Failure and success make us human.
3. Humans: naturally evil and naturally good.
4. Paths and friends are constantly changing.
5. Stay or leave, its your choice.

I Believe

This week in my Creative Writing class, our teach had us simply write ten "I believe..." statements. They stated what we believed in. Here are my ten I wrote :

1. I believe everyone is good and evil.
2. I believe that when there is hate, there is love.
3. I believe pugs are superior than most dogs.
4. I believe art and music gives freedom of expression.
5. I believe we are born alone and we die alone.
6. I believe happiness comes from enjoyment.
7. I believe everyone is unique and identical at the same time.
8. I believe you are what you eat.
9. I believe teaching is not intended for money but for spreading knowledge.
10. I believe an old body can have a young soul.