Just Tired.

I've been alive for almost 18 years now. And I have moments where I just want to give up. Hey who doesn't? And sometimes I know it's alright to have a mental breakdown. I have those often. Just 95% of the time I make sure no one sees these breakdowns. That way I will always be seen as strong. So with the past month I have had. Take that back. With the past year I have had, I am just tired. I'm tired of the stress. I'm tired of people. I'm tired of bad moments. I'm tired of not being loved. I'm tired of being sad and unhappy. I'm tired of people not understanding. I'm just tired. I need a break. And if me being silent and me acting like I don't give a shit helps with a break, then so be it. I just don't want to reach that point early in life where I just want to give up on everyone and everything.

Love and life.

There comes a point in our life where we have to pause and look at what all we have done. We have to stop and anaylyze what is all at hand. Sometimes doing that isn't the easiest in the world. We may come across obstacles and challenges. Some are hard and some are easy. But when do we decided that the time has come that we need to just pause and take a breather? Sometimes losing the one you love isn't easy. You wait for them for awhile. You see them with your best friend. Then it turns out your best friend is gay and then you think nows your chance. Well shoot, we got another thing coming. Instead of him falling for you, he goes and likes some internet girl. Some girl he will never see. Someone who will never get to feel his warm hugs. Someone who will never get to witness his terrible and good moments. Someone who just isn't there for him like I could be. But I guess that just doesn't matter. Because I will never be enough for anyone. I guess three strikes and I'm out.